Why is it that we so often think EVERYONE else is doing things better than we are?!
Or is that just me?
I read someone else’s blog today and immediately started comparing it to mine, telling myself that theirs was somehow ‘better’. In name, in layout, in design, in content…
But the fact is that it’s not. Or maybe it is, for some. But the point is that it doesn’t matter.
The blog in question is someone’s thoughts and feelings about what’s going on in their life and in that way it’s actually very similar. I liked what I read because it’s authentic and real (disclaimer: I also know Siobhan). There’s no beating around the bush, it’s just everything laid bare for all to see.
Which is so important in my book – and let’s face it, that truth and authenticity cuts through any frills or fancies anyway.
So why the comparison and the ‘I’m not as good’ voice? Simple insecurity I guess. Which is something I’m actively working on.
I truly believe that the very best you is the real you. Strengths and weaknesses, features and flaws. Everything that makes you, warts and all. And if I think that about others I need to also think it about myself.
I’ve spent considerable time during and since the divorce (I wrote it down! The ‘d’ word!), working out who I am. Not at the expense of everything else I might add but just along the way. And I’m actually now pretty comfortable with me, it’s just that sometimes that old, negative, condescending and downright bitchy voice (a voice I would never dream of using with anyone else – amazing what you’ll do to yourself…) raises its ugly head again. But this time I caught it, and told it that it was wrong. Siobhan’s blog is great. But mine is me. And as long as it’s authentic and true to who I am then that’s good enough for me.
So. In an attempt to balance things up a bit I’m telling myself the following…
I am strong.
I am true.
I am worthy.
I am me.